Yes, Mom, I’m thinking about the future.
I was looking at my archive calendar, and realized I’ve missed a lot of days in April, including yesterday. I don’t have a lot to write about today, but I don’t want to miss two days in a row if I don’t have to…
Mom’s been on my case to *gasp* think about the future. She wants me to go back to school. I DO want to go back to school, but I don’t have the funds to pay for it right now, and I don’t want to ask my parents or grandparents for the money. I know that there’s the option of financial aide, but I’m also reluctant to go into debt for the next 20 years.
There’s also the problem that I don’t know what field of study to follow. I love graphic arts, but, apparently, I’m just not a good enough artist to make a go of it. I’ve considered IT, I like working with computers, and being a woman would give me an advantage when looking for a job. I’m not sure if that’s something I want to do for the rest of my life, though.
Right now, I’m focused on finding a job. And, apparently, I suck at job hunting.
All I know is I’m depressed, and have been for a few days. I also decided that what I considered to be bad allergies was actually a head cold that G passed on to me. I’m feeling better, physically, at least. Emotionally…well, my body has gotten used to the Lexipro to the point where I’ve been sleeping for 15 hours a day, because it’s easier to sleep than to deal with the world.