My calendar tells me that it’s been less than a week since I went back to school. That can’t be right.
Last week was insane, to say the least. Every day was filled with some sort of stress, mostly of my own creation, but others…well, for instance, Wednesday morning, I was awakened when my sister called me to tell me she didn’t need surgery.
I hadn’t known that she might have needed surgery–so, okay…
After realizing I needed a change in attitude, and after trying very hard to change said attitude, things have gotten much easier. I’m getting back into the swing of student life, and, have found out a few little things that make my life much easier–like I don’t need a parking permit to park on campus on Saturdays–which is nice, because my Saturday class starts at 8am, but the buses don’t start running until 8:30.
An odd thing has happened, too. All of a sudden, when I have stuff to do, I’m aware of the time when I don’t have anything to do. My days now have a purpose, but once that purpose is fulfilled, or before it is time to start that purpose, I’ve become bored and restless.
Maybe that means that I’m ready to start looking for a job again.
I’m still anxious when I’m on campus. I had dismissed the notion of getting Lulu certified as a service dog so she could come to school with me, but today, as my Isaiah class filled out, I began to revisit the idea.
I hate to think that I’ve fallen so far from the person I was, but I have. I know I need to be around people, as annoying as they are, to be healthy and happy.
It doesn’t make the transition from being a hermit any easier, though.
- Under Pressure: The Search for a Stress Vaccine (wired.com)
- 12 Ways to Decompress after High Stress (zenhabits.net)